Friday, August 15, 2008
random musings.i realised that so damn many of my posts in 08 hafta do with mugging of some sort;
and its just sad that i've pretty much lost the motivation to study.
back in the Os at least there was something to look forward to, the end of all the studying and monotony, not to mention the company of greaaat ppl (or rather lifelong friends).
there was the impending freedom that we all counted down to;
the thoughts and crap we'd fantasize about, like going totally wild after the papers and burning our entry proofs.
the things that we wanted to prove to ourselves and our seniors, that we could totally own them upside down which we did(:
aspiring bout leaving our names on the walls, and actually doing it.
coming back as respected seniors.
now there's no end in sight.
after the promos there's chinese A lvls and PW,
and there you have it, 08's over.
here come the A levels for real.
is it really so hard to believe that my life now is,
not. a life?
its a procedure of events that HAVE to happen,
waking up, eating, mugging, doing hw, getting meagre hours of sleep, repeat for the next 2 yrs.
all this shit if i wanna be able to go to wadever course i wanna go in uni. (which i have NO idea what that is for the moment)
how long's it been since i actually laughed out loud for real since my time in JC?
like how i used to laugh like siao in batok at shaz's and xm's crap.
or had a whimsical post;
or even blogged about my daily happenings?
not that theyre of any interest, especially when this is from a guy who goes home alone every single day.
i think i'm really losing myself.
Lord, gimme a reason to keep on going,
cos i sure can't see the point in all of this right now.
its in Your hands.
i hate this.
world of my own    9:10 AM
